Updates

Just a quick update:

Still doing well with eating and haven't had a real pig out day this week (Yay me!) Still working to consistently get steps in.  I need to figure out something that makes it a challenge or something - walking during commercials, a "reward" for reaching a step goal that will be a challenge, that kind of thing.  The thing is, usually that doesn't work for me because there is no reward I can think of myself that is motivating enough, I don't care enough...lol!

Have a few feelers out for jobs, really hoping and praying that the ones I applied for yesterday is THE one because I could possibly do it from home and go to the office once or twice a week.  Also have a staffing agency that is supposed to be looking for something for me.  I don't have faith since this is the 2nd one.  I am starting to think that places might think that they are hiring but haven't actually decided to do it yet.

Whatever you do today, make it an awesome Thursday.

Blah.....

Bah! Just not feeling good today. Sinuses are acting up and my head feels very heavy, woke up with a sore throat that went away midday and is back again now as I write this.  Tomorrow is supposed to be very warm and I have a job interview so hopefully I will feel better.  Fingers crossed that I will finally have something to do and be able to establish a routine again. 

Just feeling really tired, bored, sad, fat, tired (oh, I already said that).  My motivation to do much of anything today was seriously lacking.  I did apply for several more jobs today, but all I really did was that, some laundry, meals, took out some trash and read a lot.  I'm doing great reading, too bad I can't find someone who would pay me to do that! Ha ha! Thinking I will go to bed soon and start over again tomorrow.  I think my biggest problem is that I have no plan for what we are doing for meals this week since I was so tired after church on Saturday and I ended up doing my shopping then and of course I didn't want to run around the whole store and didn't have a great plan anyway. I will sit down tomorrow afternoon when I get back and make a plan for the things I need to get at Sam's Club Wednesday and see if there is anything else I need to get from the regular store.  I do much better when we have a plan and I can just go get whatever I need out of the fridge or freezer when we are hungry, rather than spending the whole day thinking about what we are going to eat next because I'm not sure what to have. Some kind of obsession over starving, which of course is not going to happen, but it's weird.    

Good night!

Rainy days and..........

Well, the temperature outside today is finally warm, but it's humid and there is a threat of rain.  Okay, it has rained almost every day since it finally decided it's spring.  This sunshine/cloud/rain/sunshine thing is murder on my head! Also makes me want to just curl up and take a nap, which isn't good for calorie burning.

Was able to pick up a Ninja blender with the two containers and the dough dock for $50 from a Facebook swap so my plan this week is to make smoothies for my breakfasts at least.  I found this recipe on SlapDashMom for a spicy banana almond smoothie that looks like I already have all the ingredients for.  Have to get better about using what I have and not buying new until I need it.

http://slapdashmom.com/spiced-banana-almond-smoothie-recipe/


Also found this list of smoothies, so many great ideas:

http://slapdashmom.com/131-smoothie-recipes/

Plus this one looks fantastic too that I found on IowaGirlEats.

http://iowagirleats.com/2013/06/06/tropical-pineapple-mango-orange-smoothie/

Action plans

So......how do we get there from here? Obviously if I want the lower right to happen, the upper left (the Steps) have to increase.  But we all have to have a place to start, right? So, using my Fitbit, I am going to start adding steps each week.  I think I got carried away when I tried to do this the 1st time, so I'm going a little slower this time.  But slow is ok, because at least it's not sitting glued to the couch!! 

See all of these people that I have in front of me? I'm ok with that, for now, because I'm going to be working toward that.  I'm going to be working to get to 1 mile consistently first, starting this week (ok, well, today!).  2,500 steps (approx) per day X 7 days = 17,500! Look at the dent that would already make in getting caught up to the others! 

Man UP

Yeah, duh, I didn't get the way I am by doing the things that I should.  Each and every day there is at least one thing that makes me think, Huh, yeah, you are NOT doing _____ to get those results - if you want to get there, you have to work it out and figure out what works and do it.You have to be frank about how hard it is, no one said it was easy. But to get where you want to go, you have to climb the mountains that are in the way.  

It's like your behavior in any other part of your life, if you don't own it, then how can you change it? Like the picture I saw on Pinterest today:

That can be true of so many things.  Gosh, the 18-19 year old me who had a chance to make a change and didn't.  The me of my 30s who didn't deal with it (while facing depression and addiction).  Heck, the me of the recent past who didn't do what she needed to in order to lose weight and feel healthier.  Of course it is easier to just pull the cover up over your head and blame whatever for your problems, believe me, I've been there and done it.  And you know what? Nothing changes.  

Nothing changes.  

Nothing changes until you make the decision to change and actually WORK at making the changes.  Ok, so at the weight where I am currently I won't be running, but I can walk.  Ok, so I can't walk miles and miles right now, but I can walk to the end of the driveway and back several times a day.  I can watch what I eat and use my tools to keep the calories in check.  There are foods I know I can't eat and I just have to find a way around those.  I have a husband who had dietary restrictions because of medication --- I can eat some of the things he can't and I just need to learn to do for me while taking care of his needs.  He doesn't expect me to make myself a doormat for him, so why do I do it? In at least this way, I can stop being a "pleaser" and do what I need to do for myself.  I can use the groups I belong to online and on Facebook as motivation.  If they cease to be motivational, I will find others that can be.  

I liked this one cause it had walking feet on it!! Move it, move it, move it!!